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I, I hope and ...believe in myself that I can do it. I'm not so upset. I want use smileys, because the sentences looks so mean without them, but with, it's too naive...haha sorry

And, btw, I have my book repo done! In 4 min today morning at 5 o' clcok. I learnen a lot, at last I even understand the most ( I hope so.)

Circus is full of quotes and stories I couldn't tell, but my little family. Thanks to everything is illuminated song and also Sally.

Gawish, BREAK atm, so I'll tell you what I am about to do

I have to understand all the math, then make a book presentation for my
beloved Everything is illuminated augh, then sleep (Oh I have to sleep NOW I have to getup tommorrow soo early at 6AM!!
Lessons
1. IN THE 1ST LESSON MATH EXAM asdfghj
break . I have to learn vocables 4 pages, I've never seen before + write in 10 min???
Also my daddy just said we have no breads (germany...) for school anymore!! I'm so ko and hungry then!
2. French lesson, probably a vocabulary test of all these vocs I don't know pleeease not!
3.German, I have to make a presentation! I can't do!
break.
4. SPORT! I HATE THIS DAMNIT PE LESSON!!!!!! I hate sport, but nothing special than else, just ... my body is hurt ouch
5. Physics with a bunch of homeworks I will do in 2nd break (up there) and learn new stuff I've missed tuesday!
Also, we have school on Saturday, with 2 Sport lessons! *dies*

Aughhh, yesterday I prepared for German which we wrote today. I always start learn stuff for 2 months on the last day, at 23 AM!
I guess that's the right punishment..? Idk, I've been kinda "norm" lately, I never do homeworks, now I do, but this hurt my ...proudness, idk no time.
I just had a shower, I've never had a shower so fast. I brushed mah theets while having it, fun.5 minutes.
My whole body is pain since yesterday, idk why.
I'm looking at my scars one the wrists, I think it's sad what I am doing now. Ou, no time!!!

btw somewhat über bela. die Lady mit der Brille, dann morgen, Gute weiber geile weiber dumme weiber. Ahhhhhh!
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I AM A LOSER talking with my PC ähhhhrg uhuuuuhuwuhd.
Fickt euch alle zu Tode viel Spaß. Ich ochhh hgj.
Ist dats spo dasss die Erwwaschene eimmer nur Männer Frauenn Blut Alkoohol und Sex denkmen?
Ist das so?



Gueeettee Nachttt

http://omiyukixo.deviantart.com/art/He-is-ALONE-128141093

Sorry, I couldn't stand to comment this here. I know that I haven't to say anything.
I'm writing to myself only, I don't want forget.

I mean this art, it's a bit strange. I mean, this red balloon. My blog's name is balloon, my personal symbol is a red balloon too. I do excactly know the origin of them.That's what suprised me so much.

The text there. My life, no? So I feel. I can't explain and don't want talk about it now.
But all the comments and the daily deviation is... I think the DD is absolutely ok.
But I hate those comments.Yes, I hate them. Do you wanna guess why? D-do you even.....you....
Sorry. I think you peeps have a good heart if you want help him.
I... I don't want cry at you. No, but the reason, I know someone who always have the kindest heart ever and she seems to understand everyone.
She hurt me like no one else ever did. She always hurting me and I'm feeling as if she
would cut in my face with the sharpest knife, and she is so evil smiling at me.
( I didn't read a lot comments , only 4,5, so sorry.)



Did I ever mentioned Nevada tan here? The song "niemand hört dich"? Did I?
No, no I didn't huh? I like some of their songs very much. But if I didn't mentioned it, then I guess they impressed me so much I couldn't haha.
Still think they really really describe it well.

Hallo.
Ich bin verdammt feige, dass ich ihr nicht schreibe. Ich bin feige und habe Angst auf zu fliegen. Es tut mir leid.
Ich hab dich vermisst blog, du wirst auf ewig zu mir gehören, ich haue nicht ab woanders hin. Alles was ich verdrückt habe wollte ich dir erzählen, meine neuen Pläne, die Trauer jetzt und den Mut der mir heute gemacht wurde, weil ich vor ein paar Tagen das "bei mir" erkannt habe.

Naja, ich bin traurig weil ich mich nutzlos und langweilig fühle.
Happy Halloween C:
Steff, alles gute!
Greets to china, I need to write you a letter.

Will malen, jetzt. Wenn ich über Gefühle schreibe schreibe ich unoffiziell.
Aber ich schreibe wieder. Bitte. Ich hab so viel zu tun.

This is a letter, I wanna send to a special place and everyone.
I wondered about your hearts in relation to poor people today. It was strange, but
I am glad I saw one thing, and I am so endless sorry.
I wrote a little Poetry(or such) for you. Maybe nobody here is gonna understand, but it's dedicated to you. (Sorry for my poor english)

I've never been allowed to feel, what friendship was.
I was so sad when I noticed it today.
I've never felt, what the meaning of friendship is.

But I've been to a place...

I want to tell you about this place.
..where people believed in me,
liked me,
worried about me.
Even though I lost (at) everything.
Even though I was so mean to you.
And even though I ignored your letters, because I had not the power to reply..

You tried to love me, even you didn't know me.
You slept at my shoulders, even I didn't know you.
But I felt happy and warm.

Thanks.

I want to tell you how much you gave me that time. I want tell you so bad.
I want say thanks and sorry.
I konw that you are not the kind of people, who wouldn't understand this.
You would answer, and you wouldn't run away. I believe in you.

Maybe you saw how my heat was beating. I don't know.
I hope that, what happened, was real.
And I miss you, everyone.











Although, I have to say that I am yet not happy.
I don't know why. I am a silly girl. But one I know, what you were doing for me, I should thank you. It's so obviously. I am sorry that I didn't saw it.
You gave me excactly that, what I needed. I am still not happy. You have the most kind hearts, and everything I searched for you gave me. But..I was happy, that time, wasn't I? I don't know. I think I am just a very silly person, who is seeing everything wrong.
I would visit you next year again, I miss you. I want you to know so badly.
I never response, I never look at you, I love you,but I never say it, and you still try.
I really love my home here, I really love Germany. Every evening, when I go walk with my daddy, I tell him how great it would be, to show you this place. I thought a route for you already. He don't listen to me, but I always speak of it. I wanna show you my beloved home here. I am not happy here, npt happy there, would I be happy, if both was mixed toghther?
I know I wouldn't. You wouldn't work together and it's not that what I wish for or dream of.

One day i wish, I can write so normal life entrys again, with meant love words

Pretty Proud gnna finish it tomorrow cause of the angry man and my bed.
There are so many Fuyukis in mah room atm, everywhere. Because of DÄÄÄÄ
BECAUSE ILOVE DÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄ
HAHAHHAHAHH männer I LOVE THEM ÄRZTE ÄRZTE ÄRZTEEE!!!!!!!

哎呀哎呀哎呀还要回很多信呢！！
ÖUST ÜCH LIEBE DICH
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DEUTSCHLAND!
BERLIN!
EINHEIT!


Wir feiern die ganze Nacht♪
20 Jahre! Und heute scheint der Silbermond wie noch nie zu vor und alle sind gut drauf!